Friday, June 19, 2009

Have you lost weight?

I've been getting this question a lot lately. It's usually followed with 'cause you look good' (which I suppose is better than 'cause you look sickly'). And my response is always the same...thanks but no; at least not according to the scale.

Now, normally the question wouldn't bother me. It's almost like a compliment, right? 'Cause I look good, right? Except that hidden behind the question lurks the ugly little suggestion that I didn't look good before; that I was, dare I say it, FAT and in need of losing weight. Before (cause now I "look good"). I know that's not really true (although I am still shedding my winter 'coat' so maybe its a little true) or at least I don't think the people asking me the question really care about my weight but in this weird transitional place I'm finding myself lately, the question just didn't sit right with me this time. And its not like I was gonna go off on a friend for asking what normally would be an innocuous question so here I rant.

Maybe its cause I'm pms'ing. Or maybe I'm hypersensitive about my weight (I am a girl after all and I do live in one of the most superficial places on the planet). Or maybe I'm just having a funky week. I am seriously sleep deprived, so that could be a part of it too. Or maybe my star sign is in the house of 'damn people are annoying'. Who the hell knows.

But enough about me . . . have you lost weight? Cause you look good.

1 comment:

LSL said...

I think I found the weight you lost. Fuck.